This song title describes my life perfectly. I did not have a father that abandoned me, mine never got the chance to “stay.” We never had the opportunity to grow as Daddy and Daughter. Until now.
The one who had my back, the one who made sure my life was put together piece by piece was God. He never abandoned me. He was the one who stayed by my side and made sure the abundant life He promises came to fruition, piece by beautiful piece. He knew me before I was in my mother’s womb, when I was part of my fathers seed, right here, on the streets of Bangkok, Thailand.
Nature found a way. It always will. It’s mind-blowing how DNA works. With every cell and chromosome, gene and minute difference in my sequence of DNA, I am designed to be Faroh ToiGB’s daughter. After 49 years of living as one person, I find myself in a culture and people that, in many ways, are foreign to me, but also eerily familiar. How could two people on opposite sides of the world, never knowing each other, with no shared experiences or beliefs, behave as twins in every way? It astounds me every minute I am with my Dad, as if we’re living in the movie “Parent Trap,” minus the identical twin sisters. (Lol) Except I’ve found the unconditional, pure love of a father to his daughter.
I won’t bore you with the miriad of ways we are alike but here are a few. We look alike, we dress alike, we have the same love for music, fashion, hats, belts, and shoes. Our morning routines and eating habits are spot on, down to leaving one bite unfinished on our plate every time. Those of you close to me can stop laughing now! Most of my Thai family is either in the entertainment business or salon owners. How crazy is that?
We don’t choose our stories, our stories choose us. Sometimes, we have to tell them or our lives will seem diminished. I lived with a longing to know my earthly father for 32 years. Years of feeling incomplete and lost. I was raised in a family where I believed that I was no blood relation. On an island by myself. If I had know I was blood related would that have changed things? I will never know. I was to scared to even mention my story in my house. When I did the subject was changed immediately. It was the biggest, whitest elephant you could ever imagine, hiding under the rug in the center of the room. No freedom, whatsoever. They never wanted me to know the truth about who I am. At least, that’s what it felt like to me. Living in this kind of tangled web will have you question reality and live inside yourself. Always wondering wanting desperately to be free, but knowing that will never happen. Until it does happen. I thought I was free when I found out the truth about my parents. That my sister was my mother and my Dad was a musician in Thailand.
It was not until Valentines Day 2017, that I became a complete and fulfilled human being. Not only because I met my Dad, but because I know that I had a God that never forgot about me. That was not going to let me be hidden anymore. Who came to rescue me, He heard my cries, knew my hearts desire and put my life together in his time “Piece By Beautiful Piece.”
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