Free falling...it's where your best works lie. I have learned as a writer, this is where your best work comes from. Free falling. That is when you get to that place where words just come flying out of you effortlessly.
It takes a minute, and I mean that sarcastically, to get there. I have to tell my truth. The way to get to that truth is to accept the call. Then hold on for dear life. What comes next is fear. Fear that you are not good enough. That no one wants to hear anything you have to say. Who gives you the right? Those are just a few voices I heard at the beginning of this adventure. The term paralyzed in fear is a real thing. I was paralyzed in fear for a full season of time. I could not get past the voices, to tell the truth about who I am. I am still fearful every day. Not gonna lie. Which, by the way, got me here. A lie. My identity was a master cover-up.
No TV drama can touch this story. That's why I am speaking my truth. I am the one processing my feelings I was mistake, especially since that was the lie and story told to me all those years. Now hold on. Y'all know I don't believe I was a mistake. My God does not make mistakes. But you have to admit it causes self-conflict when someone has to make up a story about your existence in the world. I guess my point is, don't rely on your feelings. They will deceive you a lot of times. Believe what you know to be true.
Even if you don't feel it, having said all that, I hope someone will benefit from what I have to say. We all have stories. I have a miracle and I want to share it with the world!
