Music, it is the pathway to our very souls. It tells a story, brings people together. It is a way of communication that bonds people. They "Come Together" even when they don't speak the same language. You don't have to when you share the love of music. "Imagine"my surprise when I found out my Thai Father was a career musician. That also sang in English. It literally blew my mind. No other way to describe that feeling. You see, I understand that I am living a miracle. A true miracle. I used to pray all the time to God, pleading with Him, will I or will I not know my earthly Father one day? This went on for 31 years.Take that number to heart for just a second....31 years. I knew He held the answer to my question. This verse came to me in my devotion,as I was praying about my writing today. His details are priceless...
A wise friend once said to me, "Everyone wants to be loved but most of us are terrified to be known." I am terrified to be known, but you can not keep miracles a secret. I was already a secret my whole life. I look back at pictures of myself before I met my Dad. There is something deeply missing from my eyes. Always wondering about who I am...
My answer to the 31 year old prayer and question came to me on February 14, 2017. Like an explosion, my life changed, never to be the same again. I have lived these life altering moments several times before in my life. This one was different. It was a real life miracle happening to me. I can tell you first hand that when the God of the Universe gives you a miracle it is going to require something of you. Which brings me back to seasons of life.
Does anyone else see a difference??
When I look at myself now I see a complete person. I don't have to wonder anymore who I am or where I came from. Which, by the way, I have been ask more times than I can count. My story changes day by day. I am honored that I get to live this miracle. I have an amazing story with so many twist and turns that I can not even believe it! There are so many exciting things happening that I can't even begin to explain. I am living all the First still.
The present is Amazing, but I still have to face the past in this story. It is almost to much to bare sometimes. There is pain and sadness. Some anger, which I am not comfortable with. I am processing...everyday. All the First, I am living, make it easier to tell my whole story. I have a story and I am going to tell it! I am not going to let fear or judgement of others steal my Joy! If you have liked or even loved me before I ask for your prayers and support as I continue on the Journey God has so graciously given me. I am a truly Blessed and Thankful child of God.